The power of being open...holding all things (plans, decisions, relationships) with open hands and keeping my heart wide open to the impossible made possible - this is faith, hope in what is unseen.
To lose control - white-knuckled demand for more - this is release of fear and accepting of what has been true all along - that all is Yours.
You know this is hard for me, maybe the hardest choice right now. I'm so used to holding on, grabbing for more, clenching what I think is mine.
Can I let You take control? Can I open myself to being transformed, really transformed? Can I realize that it's really me that needs to be changed, not my circumstances?
Are You God to me or merely a tool for getting what I want (or think I want)?
I say I believe that You are my Lord and Savior. I say You love me and You have authority over all things....but do I believe it?
Yes, Lord. I think I do now. Continue to crush the fear in me and build me up to be Your temple.