This ache in my heart to date, to be pursued by a guy - I thought it would always weigh me down until I got what I wanted. Then those weeks after turning 20, I became desperate. Not only had Prince Charming not come riding in to save the day...he was nowhere to be seen as far as I could tell.
But I felt a gentle prodding to be grateful - right here, right now. I knew my only lifeline was to meditate on God's goodness. Otherwise, I would be dragged down even further, into the lies that say I'm missing out on something. Waiting for the one thing that could make me happy.
So in that brief space between classes on a Wednesday morning, I began to write a "gift list." Gifts I had received. Gifts that I had begun to overlook in my quest for more. Warmth of sun on my back, good classes, sailing, the power of music...
And right there, I felt it. Peace like I had never known before. Joy. Yes, joy, even though
I don't know when (or even if) I'll date. It could be next month, next year, or not at all. But I can say with my whole heart: Christ is enough. He makes me want to sing, dance, laugh out loud. His love is more than I can imagine. And that's what life is about: believing in His goodness and diving ever deeper into His love.
Trust me....trust Him - He loves you.
nothing in my life had changed! "I'll be okay," I thought truthfully for the first time. "Life is good. God is good! I don't need a boyfriend to be happy!"