But right now, I'm feeling far from all these dreams. The college that I was planning to transfer to just closed admission except to a very select few. I'm trying to figure out a Plan B. I haven't been on a single date. I don't have a clear plan about anything...I'm half excited, half scared.
I don't have answers, but God is good to remind me of His love. Yesterday I prayed that God would be my Trailblazer. It's not a word I normally use. Tonight I came across a shirt in my drawer that says "blazing the trail." Completely forgot it had those words written on it. Perfect timing.
And I think that's what God is teaching me in this season of life. I want to have answers. I try to put my faith in my plans. But He is going on before me, He alone knows what is up ahead. I need to take one step at a time and hold onto His hand. I need to lift up my eyes and remember Whose I am. Because the fact that He loves me and I belong to Him is SO much more important than the degree I earn, the career I choose, or the relationship status I have.
It's a struggle to live this. I rise, I fall, I flail. But He's holding on and He won't let go.
When it feels like the doors are closin',
Gotta trust that you're doin' somethin'
Come sun, come rainy day,
You are all I need
-Chris August