There's always that lie lurking, ready to rise up at every opportune moment. That lust for more, that fear You're holding out on me. And often it's the strongest when I think about being in a relationship. I love the thought of knowing and loving someone deeply. I anticipate meeting and dating that special person. And that is good - the way it's supposed to be.
But all too quickly, satan can twist something so good, a natural desire, into something that draws me away from You, my First Love. But I make a commitment to find You here, now. To rest in Your love.
Because that dream? It's a mirage. No...not dating, marrying, having a family...that may happen. But finding complete joy in a human being? Never. I'll come up dry every time. It's like trying to catch the wind with my hands.
Instead, I will practice - and learn - to take joy in You. To dance under Your wings. Let my heart be romanced by the greatest Lover there is or ever will be. I'll keep dreaming...but whether or not I get a guy, a few kids, and a house with a big backyard...I'll have You always. And that is enough. You are more than enough.